At 5 a.m. I heard the familiar sound. The beautiful chime that welcomes the new day. The voice from my phone that reports the news headlines and the weather. It's pleasant, but I dread it. It always feels premature. I'm never ready. And yet I know that I must get up.
This morning the thought of wearing jeans and a t-shirt to work was all the motivation I needed to roll out of bed. The thought of it being Friday got me to the shower. The possibility of my kids visiting their father at the end of the day gave me hope to sleep late at least one day over the weekend.
And so with black coffee in hand, I darted out the door, fussing at my daughter. "Where are your shoes? Put on your shoes!" I scolded my son. "Leave your sister alone! Put on your seat belt!" I connected to my car's Bluetooth and let Bishop T.D. Jakes talk me down from the emotional ledge. "Nothing that you have been through will be wasted..." he assured me.
This morning I got to do the dance. The dance that has become my daily life. The ritual that has people telling me that they have no idea how I do it. This morning I asked and answered countless questions to my self. I motivated myself. I forgave myself. I congratulated myself on the success of my new crochet style. I brainstormed about my upcoming new job. I frowned at the fact that I forgot my earrings and that my SNS had another chip. I thought about the emotional roller coaster from this week and how it had left me utterly exhausted the evening before.
Interestingly enough, this morning I had an "S" on my chest. A blue and salmon colored Superwoman style "S". This morning I declared to the world (at least through my fashion statement) that I was superhuman. I could take it. I know the secret.
Was I lying? Was I fake? Would people realize that I was not nearly as strong as this shirt suggested?
I don't really know how some would define the term, "superwoman". But to me, it means someone who stretches herself beyond the natural boundaries. Someone who does it anyway even if she is scared to death. Someone who says "no" with no explanation when it is needed. Someone who leans in the direction of a challenge.
And while I can get extremely cranky when I am tired, I can be forgetful and I am a terrible procrastinator, I am better today than yesterday.
Growth!!
Sounds like Superwoman to me!